GRC prep: T minus 5 days...

So my upcoming trek of death GORUCK challenge is now less than a week away, and I am pretty much as prepared as I am going to get. My bricks are wrapped and ready; I have (the bare minimum) of all other needed supplies and just need to stock up on nutritional supplements to get me through the 12+ hours I expect to be out there. Happiest of all, I am down to 150.6 lbs as of this morning, meaning as long as I avoid beer and soda this week and make sure to go on one more 2-hour training run, I am sure to be under the 150-lb mark come Friday night. (Note: I am perfectly aware I don't "need" to lose weight, and my recent "diet" of sorts was not motivated by anorexia, but rather by an intense desire to not carry any more weight than I have to: those under 150 lbs carry 4 bricks, while those over 150 carry 6. HECK YES I will lose weight to avoid those extra 2 bricks.)

At this point, there's really no more physical preparation I can do; in fact, after Wednesday I don't plan on doing anything physical at all, so that I'm rested and uninjured enough going into the challenge. I'll need to hydrate and eat well and of course make sure to hit that 2-hour run tonight or tomorrow, but this coming week, my prepping is going to be all mental.

Namely, silencing the voice in my head that is saying WHAT THE EFF WERE YOU THINKING and DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE IT THROUGH THIS WHOLE THING?

I don't crossfit. I'm not military. I don't do PT. I can't do a single pullup. The origin of the goruck challenge was special forces training and that is SO NOT WHO I AM.

So then...why am I doing this?

Well, for one, like any of these events I do...to say I did it. I want the patch and the bragging rights. I've been along on one of these challenges to photograph the event and I know (or think, at least) I do have it in me to get through it, so I want to show it. I want to feel the sense of being part of a team I felt while tagging along, but on a higher level as a participant/"real" member of the team. And for how I'll feel when I'm done. There's just something about pushing myself to where I know my limits are, and then a little bit farther, that changes me...and I want that.

So on with the endurance training, and the inner pep talks...because I need to bring something that'll benefit the team and it's sure as heck not going to be my upper body strength.

Although I am showing up with tons of beer...